DAY 95

Today I am grateful for: Eden Faith Moes

Eden is my oldest niece, and the first grandchild born in to our family five years ago. It was about this exact day 6 years ago that Brian and Lara told us they were pregnant. I remember the moment vividly. I guess some moments just stay with us forever - the moments when we realise that things are about to change forever. Sometimes for good, sometimes for not so good. This moment was all about things changing for the better.

I love Eden. I love being an Aunty. I love the cuddles and kisses, random comments and insightful questions. I love how at 5 Eden is learning about the world and how everything fits in to it. During a visit earlier in the year Eden had been talking with her parents about marriage and husbands and wives and families. She matter-of-factly told me that because I didn't have a husband she was going to find me one in Boonah (where she lives). At this stage of my singleness journey I'll take all the help I can get - even from a primary schooler!

I'm not sure what my future holds - there is no guarantee that God has a husband and children and grandchildren waiting for me - even though deep down that is what I hope for. I am coming to terms with the thought that what comes in my next 10 years may not be what I had planned. It may be completely different. It may break my heart and cause me to be rebuilt in to a new person. I love that no matter what happens I will always have the love of these children - Eden, Ava, Jamin, Kael and Asher. The children who will hopefully always call me Aunty with a smile on their face.